The Unconditional

Reflections and musings occasioned by Caputo, The Folly of God

“Deconstruction is . . . a way to think the unconditional.” (Caputo, The Folly of God, 22)

“But even here, Derrida says, we would do so in order to keep the future open which is what ultimately matters in deconstruction.” (26)

Contrary to Caputo, it feels more in line with experience to say that deconstruction is a way to unthink the unconditional. My playful use of words and concepts begins a process, but it does not deconstruct all the way down. It is only when my word-smithing is confronted with Wayne’s unthinking that our deconstruction begins to move deeper. Our process has been, from where I stand: Thinkingcountered with Feelingmoving toward Thinkingengaging Feelingtrusting into deconstructed Thinkfeeling and Feelthink Thinking didn’t get me there; feeling didn’t get Wayne there; Thinkfeeling got us there together. Theredoes not describe the exact same place—a singular spot. Thereis a spaciousness where my thinking opens my feelings (Thinkfeeling) and Wayne’s feelings open his thinking (Feelthinking).

All I know is that I am all the better for Thinkfeeling my way into deconstruction. Thanks, Wayne, for being my tutor, guide, and irritant—for helping me to unthink (Thinkfeel) the unconditional.

All of the pictures hanging on the walls of my apartment are examples of unthinking the unconditional. The Sinai Yeshua (Pantocrator) icon and the Yeshua-Abbot Menas icon (Yeshua’s arm around Means’ shoulder) are unthinking (Feelthinking) the unconditional.

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