Luke 6:39-40 39 Jesus also told them a riddle. “A blind person can’t lead another blind person, right? Won’t they both fall into a ditch? 40 Disciples aren’t greater than their teacher, but whoever is fully prepared will be like their teacher. (CEB)
[Scripture taken from the Common English Bible®, CEB® Copyright © 2010, 2011 by Common English Bible.™ Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.]
There is within human consciousness an invitation, an insistent nudging, an appeal, a lure. We seem called beyond our brokenness and limitations.
When exploring with that insistence, don’t depend on someone who only listens to their own self-sufficiency… don’t depend on The Long Robes who only know how to parse Greek verbs and proclaim theological half-truths… don’t base your understandings on those who are hung up on fairy tales.
Search long and hard to find a friend who has experienced the audaciousness of God, the audaciousness of Yeshua, the audaciousness of the good news of the Gospel. Stick with that friend. They can be your Anam Cara, your soul mate; they can listen carefully as you talk about your experience of that insistence which you can only describe by giving it the name of God. Perhaps. Pour out your questions; struggle with them; question everything (from the beginning). Own up to those times when you depended on the explanations of the Long Robes to make sense of your experience.
Struggle with the radical nature of the insistence which you are experiencing. Whether you experience that insistence as a full-blown invitation / calling, or just a beckoning nudge, listen carefully and follow where it leads.
Manifest your thoughts to your Anam Cara and ask for a word. That word will likely lead you toward transformation. Follow that leading and you will bear much fruit. It will be as if you will have built your house on a solid foundation, instead of a sandy base that will topple at the first challenge from the sophisticated world around you.
Embrace that world, utilize the best of its wisdom but never forget to go where your inner insistence leads (confirmed in dialogue with your Anam Cara). May you withstand all that which threatens your insistence — whether from those who listen to the Long Robes or from those who dismiss them. It is a narrow path to traverse and audacious to think that you can do it alone. It is spooky out there.
May I continue to be haunted by that which I can name as God. Perhaps.