Inspired by a conversation in Atheism for Lent:
Do I (Can I) understand the mystery of God?
What if “God doesn’t exist; God insists.”? What if God is that inner insistent voice that calls me to the impossible possibility? Is that enough? Do I understand the mystery?
What if I laugh at the absurdity of being called beyond my self-understanding? Impossible possibility? What kind of nonsense is that? A commonwealth of compassion, peace, and justice? Not when the world is hell-bent on a world of prestige, privilege, and power! And here I am, with my deepest wants, my deepest desires, that impossible possibility. Sometimes I have to laugh to keep from crying. Do I understand the mystery?
What if I am walking out on my most preferred future? The agonizing truth is that we are walking out on our most preferred future. Compassion, peace, and justice are within our reach… there for the asking… but we choose differently. We seem to want chaos and imbalance and injustice. Do we understand the mystery?
What if God breathes by my inhaling and exhaling? What if God is an ever-present non-being… an invitation to be better, to do better? What if, when I am at my best, God is a constant companion nudging me onward? What if God is simply the name for our highest aspirations, our deepest dreams? What if God is the counterbalance to humanity run amok – our impossible possibility. Do I really understand the mystery?
Of one thing I am sure, I will never fully comprehend the mystery. But I will keep trying!